See ya 2012, Aloha 2013!

2012 was the best year of my life so far, believe it or not. The new year always makes me real nervous because I dunno if i can handle the anxiety of living up to great stuff happening. I can be a bit of cynic. Great things can’t last forever, right? But all I can do is hope, and work hard. Keep my eye on the ball and take chances.  Here is to REALLY hoping that my prognosis for 2013 is even better. Thanks for helping make it so, you guys.
Each year I do a blog setting what I want/would LOVE to happen in the year ahead. It seems to kind of work. Who knows whether it would have happened  anyways or by writing it, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy or indeed if it was because I took the time to write this  list and it’s magic! (so taking no chances on anything). Here is my new list. It’s pretty much the same as last year with some re-thoughts. But I can’t stress enough my main goals are to:
NOT WASTE TIME
WORK HARD (ER)
MAKE A DIFFERENCE (IN A POSITIVE WAY, SOME HOW)
MAKE TIME FOR FRIENDS
HELP OTHERS
HAVE MORE FUN
ADVENTURE
WHAT I WISH WISH WISH for in 2013: Keeping the same values/wishes/hopes/resolutions as last year:
  1. That my mom, bro, nan and friends are all super happy, heathy and that NO ONE DIES! Including ME! But I would die instead of the above people if it has to come down to that.
  2. Last year I asked for a job  that I enjoyed. I ended up getting at least 3!  However EVERY single job  i have (i have quite a few)- the hours are uncertain. Sometimes I have loads of hours, other times it can be literally weeks/months with hardly anything. So thank you 2012 for an amazing job year;  PLEASE New Year help me find these golden eggs of opportunity and help me reach my potential. Help me make GREAT/BETTER impressions at the places where I currently work. Let me move small mountains. Please find extra hours for me. Please find me more amazing opportunities. Let me be BETTER. WORK HARD. Even more so, PLEASE provide me with opportunities to help others and to make a positive difference! Esp. if it falls into a job role.
  3. TRAVEL THE WORLD AGAIN PLEASE!  I love meeting new people, and every experience adds to my thoughts, and work. If I can make new friends and keep it sweet and in touch with my great friends -new and old – this will be awesome on its own!
  4. Make extra time for friends, make sure i actually see friends who live else where. Don’t let money define this.
  5. This year I need to be more motivated. Be more time-focused. Less TV and more drawing. More blog work updates, less scrawling through the Facebook time-line. This is also very, very do-able if I just organize my priorities too! I need to make more great art-works rather than just research and develope ideas that never get shown.
  6. I really really hope that i can make a positive difference this year, help others that need it, and make the world a place i’m proud to live in.
  7. More teaching opportunities PLEASE! This is a must if i want a chance at achieving number 6!
  8. As with any artist, any exhibition/residential/print opportunities no matter how small or little they may seem all adds to the endless cannon of critical thinking and art practice!
  9. I have this application (which is kind of secret), which if i get accepted onto, will make a SIGNIFICANT change in my life. It will provide me with the platform to help others who really need it. The chances of me actually even getting an interview are SLIM, like SUPER TINY. But please year 2013, i know YOU know that I can make a difference to others, provide exceptional care without exception. If i can get accepted onto this program, it will be a miracle and a 2012 dream come true. If not, then I guess I’m destined to try again or try for something else similar. But here’s to hoping!
  10. I just want to feel normal again. Like not have bone ache, or nightsweats, where i could get up in the morning and not feel insanely hungover despite not actually touched alcohol in weeks. I want to not feel SUPER tired for NO reason anymore. I want to be fit, i want to be healthy again, i just want my body and health back from circa 2006 (that was a good year ha!)

Thanks 2012 for a dope year, 2013 I know you’ve got my back. Here’s to hard-work, game changing, trying to stay focused, fighting against the ordinary daily events, challenges and finding ways or re-focusing when things might not work out exactly as we might want them to. TO FRIENDSHIP yo!

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smizz in nyc – again, again, again

i’ve been tryna post this post for a while – since i got here – which is a week today!

I’ll be heading home in 2 days, but i just had to share with y’all my amazing NYC experience!!

The class exhibition info i’ll blog when I get home in the UK but for now:

So I’m walking down 27th  in Chelsea, and i get stopped. this older woman says, “excuse me can I ask what your name is?” I pause.  I often get socially inept you know?  I eventually reply and Say ‘Sarah’.

She’s like,”Smizz?!”

I’m like,” YEAH!”

she’s like, ” OH MY GOSH I’ve been wanting to meet you. I follow you on twitter, I love your work. You’re gonna go far.”

Thank you woman on the street. I’ve never felt so awesome and special. fO Real. I’ve actually always wanted that 2 happen to me!  Makes me super more anxious to get something awesome going when i get home. I have some ideas. But gawd knows how it’s all gonna turn out. I can always jump back to my photo-montages if it all falls on its ass. it’s just TIME IS GOING SO FREAKING FAST!