Where wonder reigns and hope exists

Where wonder reigns and hope exists… Every day I woke up on the train with a desire to feel the Sun. Instead, the day offered gray sky with hints of a snowstorm. The peaks of mountains were hidden, the distance made blurry by snow blowing hard outside but I felt irresistibly drawn to its otherContinue reading “Where wonder reigns and hope exists”

Post Traumatic Growth – Trying to Make Sense of Things

One thing that my friends know about me, is that I constantly think about our existence. As a kid, during computer club after-school – after printing out a million pictures of Lil’ Bow Wow to add to my collage shrine to the pint-sized rapper – I then pretended to be a 16/17 year old onContinue reading “Post Traumatic Growth – Trying to Make Sense of Things”

Time: Before I’m Gone

Time. Time fascinates me no end. I’ve read a lot of theories about time. Can you remember when the 6 week summer holidays used to feel so long and hazy and hot? And now, before you know it, it’s already summer when it was only just Christmas. And you’re left thinking? Whoa, time!? I justContinue reading “Time: Before I’m Gone”

What 15 Years of Art Has Taught Me About My Life: If You Need Help, Ask. We Can’t Do It Alone.

As anyone who knows me, will know that the journey of illness changed my course, some-what drastically. I was prepared to dedicate my life to trying to navigate the art world path, and that alone. And I was having a good go at it too. But getting sick made travelling that rocky, unstable road ofContinue reading “What 15 Years of Art Has Taught Me About My Life: If You Need Help, Ask. We Can’t Do It Alone.”

Smizz’s Bucketlist – Revisited – Nearly a year on

In a few months time, it will be a 2 years anniversary of when I got told that I might have cancer. A Lymphoid Malignancy to be exact. I’ve spent many, many posts dedicated to trying to get my head around not having an ultimate certainty that most 24 year olds have. When you’re young, you kind of feel invinsible. NotContinue reading “Smizz’s Bucketlist – Revisited – Nearly a year on”

Faith & Doubt (Happy Chinese New Year, Y’all)

I like that Chinese New Year is celebrated in Feb. It gives us a reason and a chance to reflect on what we were hoping to do with the new year at the beginning of January. Since I’ve been sick, I tell myself that i should never do all the bad things I do again.Continue reading “Faith & Doubt (Happy Chinese New Year, Y’all)”