Sometimes I feel down on myself

When I fell sick, I lost a lot of time, a lot of work, a lot of living. I was so, and still am, fatigued that I could no longer do all the 1000’s of things i used to be able to do – which felt just natural to me. I had readapt my life,Continue reading “Sometimes I feel down on myself”

The world isn’t yet done.

Being freelance and working from home, I slowly turned into a sucker for cooking shows like Masterchef, The Great British Bake-Off, The Taste, Come-Dine-With me, and almost anything on the Food Network. No cooking show was too long or too low-brow and underproduced for me.  I thought it was probably an age thing – IContinue reading “The world isn’t yet done.”

Today, I discovered that I’ve forgotten my path, maybe even who I am.

“If you change the way you look at things, the things that you look at change.” — Max Planck I’ve written about it endlessly before, but I feel like I’m living a new – unexpected – even unwanted version – of my life. i’ve endured years and years of being in pain, delibertating symptoms andContinue reading “Today, I discovered that I’ve forgotten my path, maybe even who I am.”

Hoping for a 2016 where we open the doors wider and take care of each another

I am hoping for 2016 to be a year where we open the doors wider and take care of each another Susan Sontag wrote in her “Illness as metaphor” (1978) essay , “Illness is the night-side of life, a more onerous citizenship. Everyone who is born holds dual citizenship, in the kingdom of the wellContinue reading “Hoping for a 2016 where we open the doors wider and take care of each another”

I don’t want to waste any more of my time. That’s all: A look back upon my 2015

 

Smizz’s top movies from 2015

So each year I do my top 10 movies. 2015 has been a great year for females. So many strong female-led movies. And it’s about time! I love going to the movies, i love the anticipation of waiting to see a movie. However, this year I didn’t get much opportunity to see as many arthouseContinue reading “Smizz’s top movies from 2015”

What being an artist, trying to learn how to code & feeling like I’m dying has taught me.

It’s kind of exciting not really fitting into pigeon holes. They say I’m a Smizz of all trades, master of none. I’m currently designing and coding an app in my (limited) spare time, which I hope will help to aid patients in having a better patient-centered-care experience. The app hopes to include all the informationContinue reading “What being an artist, trying to learn how to code & feeling like I’m dying has taught me.”

Hoping for 2015 to be a year where we open the doors wider & take care of one another

Whoa, 2014. You were such a supremely bittersweet year. Full of opportunities that I am endlessly thankful for and hardships that are unspeakable. You’ve made me even more grateful for every moment of grace and love that we get. I saw my mom get married, my bro move out for the first time & findContinue reading “Hoping for 2015 to be a year where we open the doors wider & take care of one another”

Everything That Can Happen, Does Happen

I just bought a book I found in a bargin box for £2 on quantum physics. It’s by Brian Cox, it came out a few years ago when I was working one of my many part-part-time jobs in a bookstore. The book has always intrigued me from the shelf I used to stare at fromContinue reading “Everything That Can Happen, Does Happen”

Skateboarding produces space, but also time and the self.

My bike (which I made from scratch) is pretty mushed up from when I got hit by a car 2 weeks ago. The front wheel is about as damaged as my ribs. As a result I was feeling pretty lost at getting from A to B. Sure I can walk, but it’s slow and boring.Continue reading “Skateboarding produces space, but also time and the self.”