Somethings Take Time To See

It was around the end of 2011 when my super good friend, and great artist & writer, Paul Harrison and I got together in a Cafe Nero in Doncaster (The only place to get a decent chai-tea latte in the area at the time… maybe it still is) and we talked about how we thoughtContinue reading “Somethings Take Time To See”

week 1 self isolation down: unhomelikeness

You’re not a human doing, you’re a human being. I’ve been following the progress of C-19 for a long time. Since around Jan 20th. I was in Japan, walking through a market in Tokyo & my American friend was messaging me how I might get quarantined on my way home. LOL I said to HayleyContinue reading “week 1 self isolation down: unhomelikeness”

Happy SMIZZmas: my holiday message to you

It’s the annual Smizz Christmas card!! I couldn’t decide which one to share, so I’m sharing them as a collection. As we celebrate the holidays, and enter into a new year – let’s remind ourselves that love is trust, empathy, humanity, mutual aid, and care. A society built on such love is a strong society—probablyContinue reading “Happy SMIZZmas: my holiday message to you”

A New Way. Can You Help Some People Who Mean Alot To The World, and To Me?

Throughout our lives, we will come to find ourselves in a lot of different places. A lot of different rooms. A lot of different corners. A lot of different wheres. Those wheres will be unexpected. They will surprise us, scare us, change everything, change nothing, and break our hearts. I’ve found myself in some prettyContinue reading “A New Way. Can You Help Some People Who Mean Alot To The World, and To Me?”

(In)Visibility and Art [& suffering]

Today, after 9-10 days of a horrific infection, I found myself feeling human enough to do some actual work. We’re organizing a conference about art and visibility, my PhD friends and I. More info coming soon! So I started writing the stuff we need to move forward today. But what it made me think aboutContinue reading “(In)Visibility and Art [& suffering]”

Every transformation that we are witness to changes the world, & this in turn, changes us: 3.5 weeks of lessons in PhD-kingdom

It’s only been basically 3.5 weeks of being an enrolled PhD student. And what is it teaching me? Well, I’m being schooled,  once again. I keep being met with questions of what I’ve done – and I try to justify my lack of products with: “I’ve been doing it for 3 weeks?”… but people wantContinue reading “Every transformation that we are witness to changes the world, & this in turn, changes us: 3.5 weeks of lessons in PhD-kingdom”

Break it down, build it up, make it better around the world.

I’m now officially in this incredible and super lucky position of sitting across multiple disciplines all at the same time; i straddle across being an artist, a designer, a healthcare professional, a researcher and a patient.  It’s super exciting but it’s also incredibly scary – even overwhelming. I’m kind of unique in this respect.  There’sContinue reading “Break it down, build it up, make it better around the world.”

Tomorrow belongs to those who can hear it coming

I recently received some incredible, completely surprising and insane(-ly good) news.  As previously written on a few blog posts, I had applied for a PhD – not ever thinking I’d even get shortlisted, but I was happy with the learning process itself. Pushing myself forward, keeping my options open. Before I fell poorly, and myContinue reading “Tomorrow belongs to those who can hear it coming”

The world isn’t yet done.

Being freelance and working from home, I slowly turned into a sucker for cooking shows like Masterchef, The Great British Bake-Off, The Taste, Come-Dine-With me, and almost anything on the Food Network. No cooking show was too long or too low-brow and underproduced for me.  I thought it was probably an age thing – IContinue reading “The world isn’t yet done.”

Today, I discovered that I’ve forgotten my path, maybe even who I am.

“If you change the way you look at things, the things that you look at change.” — Max Planck I’ve written about it endlessly before, but I feel like I’m living a new – unexpected – even unwanted version – of my life. i’ve endured years and years of being in pain, delibertating symptoms andContinue reading “Today, I discovered that I’ve forgotten my path, maybe even who I am.”