Tomorrow, I turn another year older into my late 20’s. Slowly, slowly edging ever more closer to 30. It’s crazy because I still feel 21 in my head. I still get I.D’d for booze at bars and if I’m really trying it on, I still get Teen cinema tickets at the local Odeon.
But my life is that of an 18 year olds. I still rent, I don’t even own a wok (this is going to change), no kids, no pension. I’m still a student, albeit I prefer researcher now (PhD). Getting really sick in my 20’s kind of funked things up a bit. I lost time for making and meeting people and things. I lost money, and I spent a whole-lot of it when I got it — YOLOing or trying to find cures for my fatigue.
By societies standards, I’m not a success. But in my own standards (and I think this is what matters) I’m relatively happy with where I am right now. I mean, I am alive. I get to travel, I get to do what I love every day. I get to try and make a difference. And my life is sweeter than it ever was before, because the stakes are higher. I feel time is like an old friend who helps me to see things with much more clarity. I have incredible friends & family who are there for me, every-step-of-the-way.
As I missed New Years being sick, and as I enter the year of Copper on the periodic table: I feel like I aim to see things differently:
glass: more sea, less broken
music: more live, less elevator
dreams: more lucid, less fever
flies: more dragon, less horse
fires: more camp, less brush
roads: more country, less service
slides: more water, less land
light: more moon, less brake
letters: more love, less demand
sins: more carnal, less original.
Here’s 29 things I am going to do this year
1.) stare at the stars with the people I love.
When I fell sick, my first night of wide-eyed clarity was spent staring at the milky-way on the ballfield on an island in New Hampshire. USA, thinking about all the things I haven’t done & might never get to do. Now when I look at the night sky. it shifts me back to that feeling, being part of the universe, but also grounds me. I feel the weight of time. It’s beautiful, and technically we’re just staring at the past. What better thing to share with people you love? Time travel.
2.) make my own ice-cream
When I stayed with Tizzy & Tara in Washington DC in 2011, we drunkly came home & I really wanted some ice-cream. All they had was Lavendar and honey. I thought it would be gross – but I was SO wrong. chomped it all and felt guilty. I’ve never been able to find this ice-cream, ever again, since. I will re-create it this year.
3.) go to the coast of italy and draw the towns from the sea.
4.) design my own typeface/font.
5.) straddle the International Date Line
6.) tell my mom I love her
7.) Play the piano
because who knows when you might not be able to
9.) go surfing
10.) write & perform a song
11.) grow some vegetables
easy vegetables to grow, like.
12.) get a real christmas tree at christmas
13.) go to Japan
this will be a testament, Japan’s been on the bucket list for years
14.) learn to cook more new dishes than i have ever done before
15.) do something I’m afraid of doing
16.) ride my bike more
17.) live in a world that loves all people
we should all aim for this
19.) have fun without technology
20.) take nothing for granted
21.) try and stop feeling like i’m running out of time
22.) take more 35mm film photos
23.) do more for charities and help people more
The most important aspect of out lives are perhaps the people around us. My goal is to stay in touch with family and old friends, and to constantly strengthen the bridges built over time.
25.) finally update my damn website
26.) see more sunrises and sunsets
27.) remember that what matters most is how well you walk through the fire
28.) pay my bills & debts on time
29.) laugh at the odds
**(+ bonus which doesn’t need to be said but: 30.) Enjoy my PhD)**
Happy New Year friends