Time is uncertain. I’ve always known this. I have so many other blog posts dedicated to my mind-boogle with time. Time is a personal construct: an ever shifting, ever evolving phenomena. Where in some parts of the world it’s linear and in others it’s more circular and whole (which it should be viewed as).
We should never live by the clock, or feel forced to do something, or indeed put something off because of the amount of time limited.
Most people don’t know this. But 4 weeks ago I was told by a Haematologist Oncologist at Boston Medical Center to go back home to the UK for a Bone Marrow Biopsy to see if I a type of Lymphoma or not (as my USA Medical Insurance policy doesn’t cover to have it done here). I ignored this advise ( not without cause: mostly because I have already had a pretty decent work up including CT Scans earlier in the UK – which were clear – and what’s a few more weeks?). I will of course, in 3 weeks time be coming home – earlier than planned – to indeed get the test. But in the limbo between my in denial of ‘my doctor in the UK said it was just a virus’ and ‘what if I really do have cancer?’ I’m left re-evaluting things.
I’m using this time to really use it as an excuse to do everything I want to do. No other excuses, like money, time, fear, failure, ect. And when I find out that I don’t have any serious potentially impending doom senario (here’s to hoping, yo!) – I will learn from this moment and never again (or try to, anyways) waste my time. Because, I do waste a lot of my time.
I’ve been working with a lot of female mothering artists, who work full time and still manage to bang out loads of works of art. So I should learn from this. There’s so much I want to do, so watch this space here.
Here’s to a more together, focused, fun, better, kinder Smizz.
Things to look out for that I’m organizing or taking part in:
– I just done some drawings for a workshop at MADE Festival, very exciting.
– Bloc Projects – Assembly 13, Sheffield.
– CAKE Salon
–CAKE RE-LAUNCH – First with newsletters.
– SLAM-JAM (realistically probably in Feb 2013)
– Finishing my L3 BTEC in Science
– Continue, developing Re-Advertise with Abi Goodman
But more on all of this soon. Realistically, in October when I’m back in the UK. Being drilled into.